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with LYkke li for the past couple weeks. I love listening to her live street performances. Her music is def. feel good music, kind that makes me move my bootay! haha. I don't ever buy whole albums, but i'm thinking about buying hers.

I should feel like a jerk every time I don't reply to my dad or not answer his calls. But in all honesty, I don't feel bad at all, not one bit. It's not even hate, it's just the fact that I don't care. I know that this time of the year is the worst for him, being it all Thanksgiving and Christmas and wanting to be with a family and all, and I just like rubbing it in his face that we're having a fantastic time. Just to get back at him for his absence. I like rubbing that kind of stuff in his face. Asshole-like, very true. But Idgaf.

READ SHUTTER ISLAND.

I want to go home. I want so much just to return to the place I love the most.


What my favorite nights in Bremerton looked like.

Wrap every beautiful thing in a warm blanket with me.

I want a nice juicy big mac and a filled box of extra salty fries, with a side order of hot-flaky- crispy chicken nuggets. 'N a nice cold cup of water.

I want to be done with highschool already. I want to go far away from Washington and see new faces and new things. I want to have my own place, with my own silverware, with my own bedsheets, with my own couch, on my own time. I want that chapter of my life to start already.

I always wonder how people can stay in the same place for long periods of time. Sometimes I'm completely stumped as to why people would choose to see the same things all the time. I think it's just my personality. I can never understand how anyone chooses to 'settle down'. I think it's kind of a phobia. Like, I would hate to stay here knowing there is so much to see and to just be stuck in one place.

Gah! 6 months til graduation.
Agh! 5 months til sasquatch.
Yee! 4 months til im 18.

GIVE ME YOUR BOOBS

just very weird emotions. good weird emotions. hard to explain.
i'm very upset at the fact that i can't find a damn job, i can't find my damn glasses, and i don't have any damn money.

but at the same time, i love my life. i love life in general. thinking about the future makes me extremely happy. 
: )

Theres a girl who pisses the shit of me so much. I've never met anyone so fucking rude. She is so purposely rude and I have no idea. She just oozes bitch. GOd, shes in all of my classes and in my lunch. There's no way of escaping the little fucker.

WHY.

1.I hope I get this job,  the people seem so awesome. I want to just love them! Haha.
2.I hate my procrastination. I'm doing it right now.
3.2 jobs? No life?
4.I want to be closer to Bremerton. I really do miss you all.
5.I need a girl. A cute girl.
6.Give me two weeks, and I'll catch your attention.
7.Nadine is my date to my prom! Columbia Tower here we come!
8.Some guy was flirting with me on the ferry a couple days ago, asked for my number and a date. No reply. ha.
9.It's been a month I haven't spoke with my dad. Whadda fucking jerk.
10.Why so much animosity? Appreciate, don't hate. You never know what you have until you lose it. Please realize that.
11. Heather and Hannah and Lisa and Nadine, I miss them. They're such sweethearts. Hannah I love you!
12.Can't wait until November and December. 
13. Hot chocolaat!
14.Who wants to spend a chill day in Seattle with me? Sarah?
15. TIRED
BYE!















Why is she SO insanely cute.

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I found out that Where the Wild Things Are is playing at Pacific Place, the SAME place where me, phoebe, brooke, katie(I think), rachel and alaina watched Across the Universe. I was thinking, if any of you are reading this, if you wanted to go watch there? spend the evening in seattle and then eventually make our way to the movies? I think it'd be loaads of fun.

 

looking forward to the next 2 weeks.
school is eh. we've been in the newspaper and in the news a lot. our new school is pretty much kick ass. it's the most environmentally safe school in the state, yeaa nigga. my classes are okay, people are okay. eye candy is fantastic.

going to bremerton next weekend. i'm excited but for some reason i feel like this visit will be different, i don't know why. it's kind of a bad different, kind of feeling. idk.

i want to move to beacon hill already. lynnwood is still sucking.

yeaa

that you look at me 24/7, and purposely project your voice so i could possibly listen in into your conversation. i know. i've been there before. nothin' new.


FACT: they are 3 really cute people i think are terribly cute.

FACT: I hate how i'm selectively shy.

FACT2: BEARS BEETS BATTLESTAR GALACTICA

You're welcome for the job I gave you, that gave you 500 dollars.
You're welcome for letting you stay somewhere for a week while earning the 500 dollars.
You're welcome for the free food for a week.
You're welcome for the free rides to and fro to Seattle.


It's insane how people are so unappreciative these days. Or how they don't show how much they are.
Or how there isn't no consideration to whats been going in my life lately, and to understand that I have no time or money to cater to anyone on the dot.
Never again.

To make matters worse, when I pulled in to the house I was babysitting at last night, I broke off my side mirror.
To make matters even more worse, when I taped it on to keep it attached, the window couldn't close all the way, which means when it rained like hell this morning, it made a hell of a mess in my car.


FML- For the time being

but hey, it'll only be like 4 months til I switch to another school.
I'm so excited.

fuck you lynnnwoood!

Why does it cost so damn much for a fucking funeral. I don't mean to be selfish, but my whole summer fucking earning is going straight to a damn funeral.

WHAT THE FUCKKK

I need a good movie.

I roared, and I rampaged and I got bloody satisfaction.
Bill Kill Fucking Love I

The past week has blown me off my feet. For one, I didn't get charged with attempted murder(Thank God). I still have my job. I've been thinking a lot about what might happen in the future and with my kind of situation, I've decided I might as well just suck it up, not complain and go forward with a positive attitude. I can't do anything about moving, it could be way worse so I might as well just not fight it. Yeah, it sucks but what can I do. It's mad bullshit and it's unfair, but oh well.

At least I have Kill Bill.